As i said on twitter, i'm going to post about my lesbian life. So it starts from.. I started having a mini-crush on Teresa when i'm in secondary 3 during the period like.. MAY? Soooo, i started talking to her during June and stuffs, told her that i like her, HAHA. Very straight-forward. I KNOW. This is me. Than.. i did many stupid stuffs to attract her attention. I swear that's STUPID. But, i love her till than and feelings got deeper in a sense.
Than somehow, i got to know her " boyfriend " named Ellen and... slowly, i used her as a replacement to forget Teresa & we got together. What's worst. I think Teresa really hate me at that time. I swear that's mad stupid. :( I think she's the best girlfriend i ever had, i had many many memories with her. I shall list them all out.
#1 She's very sweet sometimes, never fail to make you laugh.
#2 She forever get worried about you if something happen
#3 She's really cute when she said "iloveyou" in different languages
#4 I really love the time when she make fun of my small eyes.
#5 I love the time when she wanted to get cigg but the uncle don't allow!
#6 I love the time when we watched movies together.
#7 I love the time when we always greet each other with a hug
#8 I love the time when she came to pick me up from school.
#9 I love the time when she always cheer me up when i gave her attitude.
#10 I love the time when she played her guitar.
#11 I love her sudden hugs when i was doing my homework.
#12 I love the time when she came down after school just to see me when it's already so late at night.
#13 I love the time when we talk through mid-nights.
#14 I love the time when she will drag your hand when you're tired of walking.
#15 I love the time when we go to each other house and do some stupid stuffs.
#16 I love the time when she act cutes. HAHA
Alright, there's more but i can't possibly write all out. :( Because she's far too perfect. Let me continue... Slowly, i got a really good friend name Priscillia. I started to have a mini-crush on her. And that leads me to drift with Ellen. Not only that, i again had a mini-crush on Teresa ex. I gave up trying on the relationship, she gave up because i gave up too. But we're still together, but arguments came in more often, and break up mention more than before.. Things aren't good towards the end.
Not only that, meanwhile, i still love Teresa. She know it. She sense it, so she think that things can't go well anymore and we broke. After all those mini-crushes on Teresa ex, i told myself not to spoil her relationship anymore. But things didn't work well. Once again, i destroyed another relationship of hers. :( This time round, things changes a little. We tend to get closer, We got to know each other more. I felt different this time round.
We're simply more than a friend. & soon, we got together. Yep. <3 Super love that day. HAHA. Although i was hurt alot of time by her, i still choose to be with her cause afterall i still love her, and many people knows that. Soo now. let me tell you some cute stuffs about her & some lame stuffs we did together.
#1 I love the time when we compare our hand size when we hold our hands.
#2 I love the time when we compare our height.
#3 I love the time when we compete who walk the slowest.
#4 I love the time when i could lean against you.
#5 I love the time when we kiss on the escalator.
#6 I love the time when we give each other long good-bye hugs.
#7 I love the time when we debate for ciggerate.
#8 I love the time when she's drunk, she's mad cute i swear.
#9 I love the time when she always say "buzhidao" & "buyao"
#10 I love the time when we go to school together.
#11 I love the time when she sweet talk.
#12 I love the time when she niam about her vb stuffs & teammates stuffs.
#13 I love the time when we go shopping tgther & she loves to play hide-&-seek!
#14 I love the time when we talk about crap.
#15 I simply love everything of hers.
#16 I love her silly ideas of getting and completing somethings.
Ohwell, Because of Teresa i lost Priscillia as a friend. My attention was all on Teresa. I neglected Priscillia. I suspected her too. Sigh. Things were so bad w/o her madness. I swear. But life still goes on. What's worst now is Teresa & i can't really handle our r/s now. :( We had full of arguments, conflicts. But still, no matter what i'm still staying strong. I know i said i want to leave, I really intended to leave, but i always stayed behind is all because.. she's forever making me worry. Like now. She aren't replying my whatsapp at all. I don't know what she's doing. I know i couldn't trust her as much as i did. But seriously, it really take time to gain everything back and she know that i need time to gain back all those trust. But sigh, anyway, HAPPY FIRST MONTHSARY! <3
Fyi, i never regret walking this path, I learnt many stuffs. Like how a girl girl r/s work. How a girl can be so sweet to another girl. It's really interesting. But things can't remain like this for long. If my mum know she will kill me or what so ever, who knows? She already had a gay son. Now another lesbian daughter? Ohgosh. :( But ohwell, i really wanna marry a girl next time! Like seriously. HAHA. Talking to far? I think i'm heading to bed soon since i'm busy tomorrow. :( Ohwell, please reply my whatsapp eh. I don't mean it. :(
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