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I'm Rachel Tan Goh Li Yan, Fifteen this year. Currently studying in Presbyterian High. I'm currently single, but i still love T a lot. But i'm getting over her.. Slowly.. But I have plenty AWESOME friends like Ryan, Poyin & etc who were there when i always needed them. I like cartoons like Barney, Hello Kitty & Doraemon. I'm friendly & hyper. I may not be as perfect as you guys think. I know i'm not pretty but please keep all cruel comments to yourself.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

You meant the world to me

HAHA! I'm dedicating this post to someone who meant alot to me since 1st of June. Awesome much and Awesome date right. I know. :) Last night was really a bad bad night. But that someone was there with me. I told her to go and sleep and she is so stubborn that we pick up a quarrel. I cant stand her stubborness and she cant stand my MENOPAUSE. Whatever it spelt is. She's very funny last night, She sang a lot of song, Let me name some, Barney, Elmo, Doraemon, Care Bear & Some other lame stuffs. I swear her singing is good but.... i don't know why when i hear her sing, My headache come. HAHA. Dame.... dont know what to say. LOL. She asked me a lot questions that i want to answer but i cant. That freaking feeling is always haunting me to do nonsense. Always letting me to be in pain. I thinnk its Satan work. Ohmy i am going to be crazy soon. Simply, i just want to say tht. I really love her, I fall in love easily but somehow, She's the want who make me get high out of nowhere machiam drug like she said just now. AND. She's the first person i ever said I LOVE YOU on the phone to her. She must be honoured lorh. & She's dame hilarious. Using weird language to tell me that SHE LOVES ME. Okay i'm being BHB. My stomach hurts now. ALOT. :( That stupid girl dont know fly where already. I think she's on her way to her check up. SUPER WORRIED LEY. That idiot still want to go to RUGBY later. She's mad. I swear. She said she gain weight and want to go and play RUGBY. Her weight more important or her body. Totally nothing to say. HAHA. I didn't know i meant so much to her till last night. She's like super sweet sia last night. HAHA. I cant stand her sweetness anymore. And her past stories is really very sad. I don't want to let her feel how she felt again. But do i stand even a chance to do all those? I doubt so. I could see that she still love her current girlfriend. I don't know. Im feeling like, very guilty now. Afterall im the fucking third party of this relationship. Knowing that she's attached and i still said I LOVE YOU. Knowing that she's attached and i still fell in love with her. Oh God. I'm super confuse right now. She meant the world to me. Its not possible for me to just let her go. Wait. i dont even bear to let her go. :( I really want to believe the word " Forever  " in this r/s but i don't think i can.

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