You meant the world to me

HAHA! I'm dedicating this post to someone who meant alot to me since 1st of June. Awesome much and Awesome date right. I know. :) Last night was really a bad bad night. But that someone was there with me. I told her to go and sleep and she is so stubborn that we pick up a quarrel. I cant stand her stubborness and she cant stand my MENOPAUSE. Whatever it spelt is. She's very funny last night, She sang a lot of song, Let me name some, Barney, Elmo, Doraemon, Care Bear & Some other lame stuffs. I swear her singing is good but.... i don't know why when i hear her sing, My headache come. HAHA. Dame.... dont know what to say. LOL. She asked me a lot questions that i want to answer but i cant. That freaking feeling is always haunting me to do nonsense. Always letting me to be in pain. I thinnk its Satan work. Ohmy i am going to be crazy soon. Simply, i just want to say tht. I really love her, I fall in love easily but somehow, She's the want who make me get high out of nowhere machiam drug like she said just now. AND. She's the first person i ever said I LOVE YOU on the phone to her. She must be honoured lorh. & She's dame hilarious. Using weird language to tell me that SHE LOVES ME. Okay i'm being BHB. My stomach hurts now. ALOT. :( That stupid girl dont know fly where already. I think she's on her way to her check up. SUPER WORRIED LEY. That idiot still want to go to RUGBY later. She's mad. I swear. She said she gain weight and want to go and play RUGBY. Her weight more important or her body. Totally nothing to say. HAHA. I didn't know i meant so much to her till last night. She's like super sweet sia last night. HAHA. I cant stand her sweetness anymore. And her past stories is really very sad. I don't want to let her feel how she felt again. But do i stand even a chance to do all those? I doubt so. I could see that she still love her current girlfriend. I don't know. Im feeling like, very guilty now. Afterall im the fucking third party of this relationship. Knowing that she's attached and i still said I LOVE YOU. Knowing that she's attached and i still fell in love with her. Oh God. I'm super confuse right now. She meant the world to me. Its not possible for me to just let her go. Wait. i dont even bear to let her go. :( I really want to believe the word " Forever  " in this r/s but i don't think i can.