Tired of everything.

30th, i swear, no matter how hard i really tried, i cant forget you, FUCK IT SERIOUSLY. Im sorry my dear boyf who is so sweet to me now and love me so much, the truth is, i still like my ex, a little. that little means alot to me. Memories of this bear, this bear staring at me whenever i am asleep, every thing i have with me have memories of you, I cant stop crying, tears dropping whenever they want, School was perfectly normal because joel zhang keep make me laugh, But when i reached home who will? My boyf always tried to make me smile, but i failed as a girlf, always tends to make him get so worried about me. Me always giving him little tantrum, how immature can i be, My heart aches a lot. I swear i am going to call Hongwei and cry out later on. I am fucking serious, today is not my day, dont expect getting anything from me. Most importantly, Im sorry baby, i cant sweet talk to you as we did the normal day, i cant smile like how i did. Most importantly, im loving two guys now. What's wrong with me, Boy, i dont want to hurt you too, I want to show you that i love you too, But im getting tired, i have to let go one of you. :(