Go back the same

This is the only picture i have on my laptop which have both of us, basically today, all i am is going to post about you my dear friend Joey Seah, I know we have like lost contact since this year, Nicole told me that you, felicia & layguat said i changed a lot. I know, i changed a lot after knowing CELESTE. I'm not that last time Rachel that laugh whenever i want, make you guys laugh and go high. and most importantly my attitude started to change. Im not as happy as last time, I started smoking, I started being lazy to study. Everything changes. I changed being a playgirl. I know it hurts you a lot when you see me change when you are always there for me when i needed you last time. Whenever i quarrel with anyone, you will be there telling me what is right and wrong. I know i disapointed you a lot. But this is already me, do you want me to change back like how we were? Recently i didn't really hang out with her as much as last time, I am already trying to change myself to be those good girl type. But i think things can go the way i planned, Some stuff might happen in between right? I dont know. I don't want to lose you and her. Both of you mean a lot to me.  Could you just accept who i am right now? Anything not happy with me just say it out alright? I wont get angry with you, I promise. :( Most importantly i will never forget what we did last time alright! I love you.